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Norway, seet Norway... Haven't been (yet) but i'm still waiting to go with you (as you once promised, i can clearly remember).
But, all in all, i'm now especially waiting for your visit to motherland (weird, isn't it, in polish it goes from father, some paternal issues, right?) and then you will write a nice note about Cracow, Warsaw or Trypolis - might better known as Danzig and everything around:)
Missing you here, there's still no snow, and even winter is quite odd, rather rainy than really cold (and this year i was well prepared, shoes and jacket especially for -twenty or something... like it used be last year)
eh, have to read some wittgenstein (nb: he used to have a house a'la Lincoln in Norway), lot's of love, buzi
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Well.. I feel obliged to leave the message on your page as I was mentioned as d one who realised your dream. It may surprise u but i'm in Poland rite now. It was really emergency as I started to cough with blood so I got really scared. The story is long n complicated so maybe I will tell you everything later. Anyway, I've just got out the aircraft a few hours ago and still feel bit more Indonesian than Polish. Truely, I am. Now I ask myself: how could I feel betrayed by my Faith and give up a belief that Dharmasiswa stopped showing me The Only Right Way that is my life. I doubted, but now I know that was me who was wrong. Every single thing that happened to me had its sense that leads to the point I am at right now. Do you remember our conversation why do we think that if it's good now, it has do be worse soon? And we came to the conclusion that no, it's like stairway to heaven, nothing's gonna spoil, it will be just better and better. My repeating ilness was not just bad luck, it was necessary to make other things to happen. So now I am again in Poland but don't consider it as a defeat or sth like that - the last days in Jakarta revealed some things I wouldn't get to know n understand if I would not be sick and returning home.
So - now I feel completely happy and fulfilled. I can say that at last I have an aim in life. I have plans for the next 3 years or maybe a lifetime.
Yeah, and really, during these months I had d time of my life.
And even during gloomy Polish November I am gonna have my small (Indonesian) sun shining inside my head. I feel passionate for this country and I know one thing: I'll be back soon.
This year I have to graduate for my Bachelor degree and repair my health. Starting with summer vacation I'm gonna move to London with my Future Indonesian Fiance - he will do his Master there, I will work and also learn Bahasa Indonesia to be fluent in that and after that year we are gonna to go back to Jakarta - I already made a deal with heads of Dharmasiswa that I will return for the scholarship, but to study at the best university in Jakarta (and Indonesia as well) not in a sleepyhollow like Mataram. But who knows, maybe i will not the scholarship to polish my Indonesian and I will just manage to find a work there or complete my Master degree?
I just feel that at last I found something that I was searching for all my life.
I am in love with something.
I've got sunshine in my bag:)
It's like all my dreams are going to come true.
Ommmmmmm......
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just wanted to say hi and that of course i'm waiting for new stories and pictures:P feel kind of stupid leaving message while u are downstairs:)... cu, :* | |
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