Wow!
I dont even now how many days of teachings/transmissions that ive attended. The information is so intense...yesterday was 7 hours about existence and non-existence and emptyness....and holy cow batman...my head exploded and i had to bail the last hour. Today we went to the morning session and then we all decided to take the afternoon of to chill and digest the information that weve been recieveing. I think that weve got 4 more days of the teachings and then HH Dali Lama is giving an trantic empowerment...its a hugh iniation...im not going to recieve because you have to commit to do the practice everyday and im just not there yet. I think the other ladies are going....so maybe ill go to a movie..yes there are several theaters here and they've got current flicks. Or maybe go on a hike and take some pictures. I'll let the day decide.
So what else to say? This is such an intense experience sitting with HH Dali Lama. The information is so deep, so Im having to adapt to sitting for hours and listening to Buddist teaching of compassion, cyclical existence, and emptyness...my head throbs from the download! Cant i just go out and take some pretty pictures? Cant I just spend all day shopping? Cant I just spend the day drinking chai and watching the clouds go by? What is cyclical existence any way? What do you mean emptyness and non-attchment? :) I sit in the teachings and think about my family and friends and then i come back, i sit in the teachings and stare at all the beautiful tibetians and wonder about thier lives...then I come back. I sit in the teachings and worry and stress that im not going to have enough money, that im going to get sick, that im going to have to fart from the Dal I had for lunch...but i cant because it will be REALLY loud and :) and then I come back. This is all part of the teachings..all part of the work..all part of it. It's all part of the deepening that happens. It's the spiritual car wash..you enter with all of these layers and one by one they get washed away or sometimes they are stubbern and then need to be scrubbed away. Then sometimes you need to go in again, cause you didnt get clean the first time...and this is only the first week.
So my family, my lovely friends, I am sublime. I'm in "IT", the "it" that i crave and look for the challenges that i forever seek out. I send you much love and please rest easy mom that im GRRRRRREAT. :) Im going to borrow sharis camera and take some digital photos of this place.
I love you ALL!
Namaste& Blessings
Wendy
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