Hey Mommy!
I love you. I'm flying British Airways. I'm really ready to come home now. No joke about that, I feel like the enemy is really trying to hit me hard, be in prayer for me. There are so many scams here on Long street, Cape Town. I get angry/frustrated when people take advantage of the compassion and generosity of others to continue living in laziness and addiction. I gave 10 Rand ($1.50) to a lady who asked for money to buy a litre of petro b/c her skooter had broken down. I asked the Holy Spirit if I should give her money. He said NO very clearly. I had already stopped and was more concerned with how I would look before people (judgements against me) than with being obedient to God. I was a people-pleaser, not a God pleaser. I walked away knowing it was a scam. I was afraid I had not heard clearly, I doubted. Perhaps, I was more so afraid that this "lack of generosity" would weigh upon my conscious. This morning the same lady, with her "skooter helmet" around her arm, presented to me the same LIE. I'm tired of being used to do the enemy's work. Allowing this woman to live in laziness and dependancy. I will value obedience to God over my desire to please people and protect my conscience. I will forgive this lady, because I know that I too am guilty at times of laziness and dependancy. Thank God that there is no guilt or shame in CHRIST JESUS!
Well mommy, I love you. I will see you soon, God bless,
Christiney
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