with love from Spain
as usual i feel this is a bit overdue. there is so much i'd like to write in here. how do i sum up my time in the islands of lake victoria in Uganda? how can i fully express the contrasts of morocco? how do i put into words all that's in my head and heart that needs to be sorted?
i'm in Spain now, typing from a beautiful home on a hill that overlooks the Mediterranean. the temptation is simply to watch the ocean and not think, not process, simply flatline my brain. but my coffee buzz is just right, so i'm writing to you, my general public. actually, whoever is reading this probably holds a special place in my heart so that means you're not 'general'.
the extremes of emotion after 3 months of intense travel have me feeling bi-polar. one moment i'm so grateful, thrilled, and feeling blessed for all i've beheld. the next i'm internally whining about wanting to settle down and stay put for a while. can i please have some constant relationships in my life? lately that's what i've found most difficult. i mean, i love the life track God has me on, but i find it most difficult to change my deepest friendships every few months. i mean, true friends always hang on through all my world exploration, but my heart longs to have more consistency.
on the other hand, i've met more amazing people can i can possibly describe this little blog space. how else would i have sat next to a teenage boy from a slum area of Johannesburg and found out about his dreams of business and housing ideas for people in his position? if i had not departed, i would not have met Pam, a Kenyan woman with 2 children suffering from AIDS. her husband passed away last year and now she struggles to physically get out of bed each day, let alone pay for her children to attend school and face her family that shuns her. if i had not left my home, i would have never met Sam who works to bring the good news of God's love and freedom to the Muslim world in Morocco. his cover is his business there and he prays for opportunities that these beautiful Berber people would know the fullness of God's salvation.
so once again, my heart is full. every time i feel i can't take any more in, God enlarges my vision and my capacity for more. i wish i could show you somehow through videos or photos or moving poems all i've seen and heard. i'm not sure exactly what inspiration it may bring, but i can tell you nothing is like seeing it firsthand yourself.
maybe you want to depart too. either you're planning it in your heart or you're going to leave for ____________ [insert location here] soon. but in past months you've have amazing 'ah, ha!' moments yourself. if you've read this far, then you may have time to type out one of your own on my guestbook. i'd love to hear it. being this far from home and stability, it's soo good to hear what new things you've discovered.
sending blessings and love from Malaga....