As I spend more & more time with Daniel, my son, I am shown more of God's love as a father for His people. How He delights in us. How He delights in our dependancy and wonder of Him.
I recently started reading a book called "God's Keeping Power: Living in Wonder & Dependancy." written by Graham Cooke. It's a journal that's interactive, which means, it gives suggestions of things you can do, so you can grow in wonder of God. One suggestion was spend a day with a child. Take them to a toy store or a candy shop. Get them something new (i.e., toy/candy) & watch how they love new things. So I did!!!!!
Daniel & I were at the store in the checkout lane & he saw a toy car. He said, "Dad can I get this?" I had to say no cause I didn't think I'd brought enough money with me. Well after all my items had been wrung up, I had just enough left over to get him the car. So I did. Daniel was so excited. He just couldn't wait to play with it. Once he got it in his hands he was all smiles. He even ended up sleeping with it that night. (And I'll be honest....it brought me so much joy to buy that for him).
The next day we went to get him something he'd asked me for all day, over & over again. It was a movie called "Monster House". Once he got it, he was so happy. Really bouncy. Smiling. Laughing. He was so excited. He wanted to watch it over & over again. He wouldn't put the box down. He just had to hold it all the time. Constantly looking at it. Taking it everywhere he went. The dinner table. The bathroom (or at least he tried to, anyway.) But the point is, he loved it.
So the next day I spoke about YWAM & Jams 127 at my churches Missions Conferance. After service was over I had a man approach me & ask me if I could use a film camera. Well film to me at the time meant, 8mm (movie) camera. So I said sure. Well maybe 5 minutes later an older lady called me over and asked me the same question but added, "Yeah, my husband has been a professional photography for years." So then it clicked. Film=35mm. (I'm a bit slow sometimes).
Well the husband then came to me and asked if I could use a teams worth of camera's. I definitely said yes.
So the following day I was at the church in a meeting and this gentleman comes up to me and hands me 3 professional Canon camera's & a giant lens. Brand new they cost, a total of $5,000. I took those things home and played with them for quite sometime. I had to show everyone in the house. I took them to the school & showed the gift I had been given. Then it hit me a couple days later. I was now Daniel. I was given a gift God KNEW I would totally enjoy. The thing is, I've been in Alaska since August and it's now November. I've been praying for a camera that long. I hadn't gone out and bought one, frankly cause I don't have the money, & plus I've had debt that's needed to come first. But God saw my desire and filled it. This isn't a story of faith in what I'd prayed for, or perseverence. It's was to show ME that I can live in total dependancy in God, and wonder at who HE is. And as I drive around Alaska, no matter how cold I think it is, I look at the mountains and the sunrises and sunsets that are daily before me, and THAT'S when I stand it totaly wonder. Wonder, that someone who created all this majesty around me, cares enough about me, to hear my prayer for something as small as a camera, and finds joy in fulfilling that prayer & desire.
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